a dark hole and Seth Meyers conducts a symphony
I
am back from quite a long hiatus. I am working on a few episodes for the channel. But first, let us just talk.
The
last two years were probably THE MOST difficult period of time in my entire
life. I lost my dearest friend and my mother within three days of each other; I
honestly do not have many friends. When you take these two events, with their
own stories and timelines, and add my own personal timeline and experience of
these two events you'll get what I call "sliding down the never-ending
dark hole of negativity and self-hate". Just put all that and throw in the
ogre that lived in my mother's house, two kids who lost their grandmother and a
bunch of mental and physical health problems into a cauldron and light it up
and there you have it, the road that led me to moment. It led me to re-evaluate
my life and question my motivations. If you want to learn more about that part
of my life, check out
mytgurl's dark world where I talk about myself and complain about the
world being annoying and stuff.
What
is my plan? What do I want to research and talk about? I haven't pinpointed it
yet. However, I know that I have tons to talk about. Especially when I am
deeply high. Then don't get me talking or I WILL NOT shut up.
I
really enjoy listening to comedian Seth Meyers. I find him to be naturally talented. I have caught
myself laughing so hard during his current show The Late Night with Seth Meyers. Today, however, he just impressed me, and he kept me listening. He
jumped out of the screen and said: "you can do this mytgurl, I got your
back!" Never mind, I think I was high. Yes, I do remember him being good
at what he was doing, and it urged me to sit down and write. I had just
finished watching his segment: America's
Urgent Gun Crisis and the Rewriting of the Second Amendment: A Closer
Look; it was posted 18 hours ago so I completely missed the boat
on that one, and I saw his passion for comedy and his emotions towards a
delicate and difficult situation come together in a very beautiful harmony. It
was funny when it was supposed to be. It was serious when it was supposed to
be. And sometimes he brought them together like a symphony. It made me feel
sadness while feeling a desire to send love and courage to those who lost loved ones. It
made me feel happy that a Senator chose to speak up when maybe no other senator
would have; I only get my American News from Seth Meyers, you can trust him, right? To be able to bring such extremes together
so wonderfully is to be gifted. So, Seth, please take a bow, take off the tutu,
and keep writing those funny scripts. Wait! That was John Cena. My mistake.
I
want to fan the flames of my burning fire and say that I plan on looking at
many things I want to share with the world. However, splashing videos on
YouTube is one thing but anyone who produces content on any streaming network
would probably say that delivery of content is just as important as content
itself; what's the point in having a bucket with no water in it when the fire spills and lights up your neighbour like a Christmas Tree. Unless you're a kid or a teen, then you just don't care since your
audience should be other kids and teens. That's according to my youngest child
and they are a teenager. So, until I can muster up enough energy to finish some
of the videos I am working on, you will have to contend with me "scribbling down my thoughts" and some research information.
Catch
up with me in the next post
mytgurl
xox